-sianz-

suddenly, i dun feel i'm enjoying my work nw. dunno y.. *sigh* it juz struck me.. smhw, it's mundane.. every xxth of e wk, i've to submit this.. then e xxth of e wk, i've to submit that.. then it's time of e mth to do e a/cs.. it's a cycle.. everything is a cycle..

say e same things, explain e same matters, key in e same data.. *sheeeesh*

but who can i blame? no one.. i chose dis path.. who can i niam to? no one.. i chose it myself, so y niam to anyone? no one can understand anyways..

even if smthing new landed on my open arms, i'm bound by tons of stuff.. i'm juz e secretariat.. e robot to juz absorb instructions and carry it out, from a - z..

mayb i'm feeling emo rite nw.. bt i hope i can get bak dat vibe whereby i look forward to work.. o, i enjoy e company n e team dynamics bt it's juz e work.. cld it b a sign for me to look outside?

gotta get my engine heated up for e upcoming events on 20 dec.. yea, juz 17 days n nothing is done.. tell me abt it.. i even had to cancel my batam trip so that things are in place.. n nex week, there's internal audit by a super on-ster.. sigh!

i nid a lyfe.. so looking forward to my leave bt then again, baby's nt gng to b in town.. which means i've to take care of e house! *faint*

*drags me foot*

.yellow.

it juz struck me dat i prob haf a thing for yellow.. well, not yellow clothings or food or watsoever.. probably yellow characters wld b apt! hahaha! y do i say so? here's y..

when i was younger, i adored tweety bird (yes, dat fella dat goes, 'i tawt i taw a puddy tat! i did i did!').. then nw, i'm into pooh & spongebob!!! heh heh~ i dunno hw it happened but it juz did.. my workstation is currently flooded by spongebob balloon (kudos to baby), spongebob whacko (kudos to stan), spongebob calendar (kudos to xiao hei), spongebob post-it (kudos to xiao hei again!) n sm spongebob toys.. not forgetting ah pooh's cup, ah pooh's handphone holder, ah pooh's toys too! goodness.. it's becoming more toys r us than a workstation BUT i LURVE IT!

oh, n i wanted to get e 400% spongebob bearbrick but then i felt it looked too spastic.. buahaha! n i realised they have e same one in 100%!! so probably, i'd juz source ard for e 100% (less spastic).. kaka~

anyhws, i'm juz blabbering coz i haven quite updated my blog for sm time n juz wanted to update it a little.. heh heh~

so, in 6weeks time when ur thinking of wat to buy for my bday, i believe u haf a better picture eh? hahahaha!!!

hope.u.get.it

i noe it's selfish of me to wish for this.. but i really hope u can get it.. yes, ur tired but i hope u understand where i'm coming fr.. e past month or so, u haf tried in vain n i believe u understood hw difficult it is for u to b outside..

i see it as us moving forward instead of backwards if u stayed on.. i've been praying too.. for u to get it.. if u do get it, i hope ul also take e opportunity to strive for ur own upgrading..

hope we'll hear good news soon.. *fingers crossed*

mum's.new.resting.place

last wed marks mum's 5 yrs departure (based on lunar calendar).. her resting place had a major major revamp.. mum's urn was moved here n there throughout e past year or so n FINALLY, renovations are done n she's enjoying herself in e air-con suite.. YES, u saw right.. AIR-CON SUITE!

here's what the new management did to e place:

e lobby
(along the plants, is the water feature.. cool ehz)

mum's suite

i'm amazed at hw this whole place turned out.. we saw it on paper when e new management showed us their plans.. they had depicted this place to be similar to that of a hotel n my my, they have succeeded! e lobby is way cool n e suite, it has sofas for pple to chill! juz like any suite.. bt i'm glad mum finally has a proper n comfy place to rest.. =)

with such renovation works n architectural designs, vacant resting places are nw priced 300% higher than 5yrs ago when mum passed on.. i heard it's abt $30k for a single slot! $30K!! imagine, i've gotta start saving money for my afterlife resting place too!

loving.ol.folks

last sunday was my last bwc project as a cdc-ian.. n i cld really feel e rock being lifted, right after e event.. =)

anyhows, quite a bit happened at e event - good, bad, weird, serious.. u name it, it had it.. as usual, e participants were ol folks n they usually complained abt e long distance they had to walk.. fyi, dat day's walk was 3.8-km.. yes, it's a killer even b4 they started walking.. n due to sm logistic issue, quite abit of e folks didn't quite go on e 3.8-km route.. while some did..

as i was leading grp 138 to e route, i saw an ol couple walking towards me.. wat warmed me, was their interlocked hands w each other.. e uncle w greying hair was holding tightly to his wife (i presume) n walking alongside her.. slowly n steadily to accomplish their 3.8-km feat.. kudos to them!

dis e couple..
sweet eh?
they seemed like they were in their own world,
enjoying e scenary with each other in tow..
hw nice..

i wish them blissful-ness always!
aunty, uncle, u brightened up my sunday! =)

no.problem.i.can.walk

today's my last bwc event n it also marks e first & last time that i've been tasked to b e last walker (i've nvr walked during bwc events as i had to run ard to ensure things were done).. anyhows, i wanted to share abt wat i saw dis morning..

being e last walker, i had to ensure that no participants r left behind n to 'collect' e safety marshals.. as i was e emcee, i had to catch up w e last few walkers so that i noe that i'm def e last walker..

i caught up w this couple - e middle-aged guy was walking w a limp n beside him was his wife (i think).. i had thought that this couple was not part of our group as they didn't don our tshirt but i decided to ask to make sure.. i was wrong.. they ARE part of the 2,000 participants there for e 3-km walk.. as e uncle was walking w a limp, they were e last two walkers thus i decided to stick to them just to ensure that e uncle can manage.. oh, e uncle seemed to have been injured before as he couldn't really move much of his left side..

e uncle even shared that he went to our office to try n look for a job.. he was offered one but decided nt to take up as it required him to handle cash which he wasn't v comfortable w.. i was also taken aback that he is still actively looking for a job despite his physical limitation.. i salute him..

e walk was filled with slopes, both up and down.. at every slope, i'd ask e uncle if he can manage, he said, 'no problem.. i can do it, will just be slower..' and concentrated on his walking.. his wife wld always hold out her hand for him to support whenever they hit e slopes.. i was quite touched when i saw this scene..

e uncle also felt apologetic that he was holding me up due to his pace but i reassured him every time n rephrased wat he told me - 'no problem.. wat matters is we complete the walk, no matter how slow or fast..' he gave me a smile.. =)

it was probably at abt e mid-point dat i had to tend to an elderly n evacuate her out as she couldn't carry on w the walk.. i asked e couple if they wanted to stop walking n catch e ambulance together but e uncle maintained his statement that he can complete e walk.. hence, i told a volunteer to help me b the last walker and see that the couple reach e end point.. thereafter, i zoomed out to arrange for e ambulance to fetch e senior..

at e end point while dashing here n there, i saw e same couple reaching e distribution point (which was near e end point).. i was so happy for him that i shouted YEAH! i was proud of him dat he completed the 3-km walk n v happy to see his smiley face dat was filled w accomplishment.. =D

i learnt 2 valuable lessons fr this couple:
1. to always believe dat u can reach ur destination n nt b dampened by hw much time u take;
2. as a lifetime partner, we shld always b ready to stretch out our hand to support each other during difficult times..

to e uncle: shld u b recovering fr injuries, i wish u a speedy recovery.. may u also get a job dat is suitable.. i applaude ur determination n strength.. thank u.. =)

juz.7

it's juz 7 more days to e day i bid farewell to everyone at cdc.. mayb i will nt feel it right after coz i'll still b popping by to follow up on my last project due 27 sep.. thereafter, i believe e feeling will hit me..

today was my last time seeing mdm chan as she'll b on leave e whole of nex week.. i gave her a hug.. after i gaf her e hug, i cld feel tears coming and i quickly tell her i had to leave (i was also in a rush as i had a dinner appt).. i had many things to say n convey my words of thanks to her but i stopped myself coz i think i'd burst into tears..

mdm chan is a very adorable lady.. sometimes she makes ur jaw drop w her cute actions or statements.. she's like a mummy to me (well, she is a mummy to a 10yr old boy).. i'm so gng to miss her n our lunch dates..

this place is e longest i've ever worked since i came into e working world n of coz i had many great memories n many dear colleagues whom made working life more enjoyable.. *sigh* i dunno wat will happen to me on my last day - 11 sep..

will i burst into tears? will i not?

stereotyping

most of u prob noe i have 2 blue streaks on my hair ya? i didn't quite get into trouble at work but my gm advised me to change it b4 i leave.. well, i cld understand her stand coz she'd wan her officers to look presentable n blah blah blah.. bt wat i dun understand is that why is blue hair nt considered ok for working professionals?

red is a colour n so is blue n green n pink.. so why is red hair being accepted n categorised as 'normal colour' but nt blue / green / pink hair? more often than not, blue / green / pink hair has been associated w e terms - wild, funky, punkish.. who started such stereotyping? i find such stereotyping, RIDICULOUS..

we are living in a modern society but w traditional mindsets.. if we can't accept out of e norm stuff, hw can we even encourage creativity or thinking out of e box?? juz bcoz one has 'weird-coloured' hair, he / she is sentenced to b a wild and can't-take-things-seriously person? nonsense.. wat abt one whom has tattoos? does it mean that he / she are uneducated pple? NONSENSE too.. such are stereotyping that was passed dwn fr years back..

in my case, i feel it's weird that we can't have such coloured hair bcoz we are always trying to keep up w times n getting pple to b creative n think out of e box.. but smhow when u think out of e box, there's still a boundary.. in any case, e world out there has opend up so much but where are we still at where we were prob 20yrs ago? why do we package ourselves as such?

why dun we open up our mindsets, b inclusive n look beyond things? mayb this way, e group that we hope to attract can find us interesting enough to want to check us out..